Friday, April 17, 2009

Thinking


About the vast space of the universe... Try and concieve just how big the universe is and then think about your size and your worth in such a gigantic space... thats why they call it space.. its so big.. and empty
Ive got so man things on my mind but I dnt know how to express them.. Im willing to bet that the thoughts in my mind could fill up the vast space of... well... space... thats a lot for one person to hold onto dont you think?

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Just

A touch
A kiss
A look
A hug
I want to know that im needed. I want to know that you cant live without me. I need to know that im not the only one putting my all into this..
Ive felt that before and I took it for granted.. stupid me
and now that I have to fight for every touch im kind of getting the impression that maybe I made a mistake
but maybe should just wait and see where this goes.. Maybe ti will get easier over time

I just want you to notice me

Losing Control

Where am I?
What am I doing here?
Why am I here?
Whats going on?
I am sitting in a room that I did not choose to be in. I was placed here by the powers at be.. You all kno who they are..
The donors...
the ones who "gave you life" and intend to use it against you until you are Dead And Gone.
Ya them.
Im here because they layed out a path in front of me that I had to follow.. Like a maze.. If I go the wrong way then I get punished. According to them I have to stay on the "right" path in order to make it in life. Whats going on is that I have decided to make my own path, and they dont know how to stop me. Im at that point where I am ready to make my own desicions... whether they be good ones or not. I want to make all the wrong choices knowing that I made them all on my own. Now if that puts me in a grave then so be it. If it lands me in the trunk of some serial killers truck then that was my "fate". Or even if I end up being some multi-billionare.. I want to have the satisfaction of saying I did it on my own.. with no one elses guide.

Now this may seem a bit extreme and I have to admit I am making it something bigger than it really is. But Im just making a point... I ready to fly or fall.. Ive been practicing, I promise... Im ready... Just let me go